Why I’m Not Pursuing Nurse-Midwifery, Part 1
Sometime mid-2017, I decided to pursue becoming a midwife. It was a thought long in the making, but one that I had not given much attention to. After discussing my options for school, career paths, options for financial aid, and more with my husband and anyone else who would listen to me process. After some amazing advice from fellow student midwives in Orange County and beyond, I decided to pursue nurse-midwifery specifically. I began taking classes to complete prerequisites in order to apply to nursing school; I threw myself into allll the science courses that I had always avoided, knowing I just needed to get through them, then just needed to get through nursing school. Someday, finally, I would be able to study and practice the birthy stuff my heart, mind, and spirit so adore. I would just need to be patient…. The video below (transcription below that) is me chatting about how I realized that the nurse-midwifery path was not for me and how I came to understand my values around birth, human rights, and the medical model of care more clearly.
Amanda: Hey all. I have decided to do a little bit of journaling, but in video form. Mostly because I think it would be much quicker than actually writing down all of my thoughts and feelings at every step of the way. Even though I feel like that would be much more effective for my own processing purposes long-term, and even though I feel like it’s healthier for the mind and body to do it physically, I know myself – I won’t have time, I won’t have the consistency to actually follow that through, so this is my first journal kind of video blog thing. I don’t actually know where this is going to go. But I recently decided that I did not want to become a certified nurse midwife, which was kind of a goal of mine that I announced earlier in the year. I had some interesting feelings about even announcing it to begin with because I wasn’t sure what it would look like in reality. I wasn’t sure if even getting to point where I was in nursing school would be a thing, and I wasn’t sure how nursing school itself would go. I wasn’t sure if I’d actually like being a nurse. So, there